Random Bitching

i went for an evaluation at peninsula this morning i was told i seem to have a good head on my shoulders for all that ive been through. yay. so now i endure more. i wish that someone would just say ,"yea you are fucked up. We have a pill for that." but nope i endure. FUCK THAT I DON'T WANT IT ANYMORE!! I WANT TO BE A COMPLETE MESS THAT DOESN'T KNOW IT! I WANT TO FEEL JUSTIFIED IN FEELING THAT MY PROBLEMS ARE NOT MY OWN FAULT THAT EVERYONE OWES ME SOME THING!!! THAT ALL THE STUPID SELF CENTERED WHORES THAT THINK I OWE THEM SOME THING WOULD JUST FADE AWAY WITH A PERFECT LITTLE PILL!!
but no in the end i endure others hurtful words and actions not because im so super humanly strong but because its all i know.

hey i need a car to take my drivers test in (my horn won't work) if anyone dares to let me drive for the test PLEASE call me 2372202!!!! and btw if i had your number but havent called in a bit its cause i bought a new phone and forgot to have the lady transfer my phone book so please call me and give me your number!!!


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yea so im an ass! when i lol I REALLY IN THIS SCHOOL LIBRARY LAUGH OUT LOUD!!*winks*harrr* not only at things other ppl do BUT AT MYSELF!! ima tard! i totally just typoed on a response what i ment to type was i forgot my "pix disk" what i DID type was i forgot my "pix dick" LoL! what an ass yea so i amuse my self to easily srry

yea so SNOWW!!!! rory had a BLAST in the snow and so did i, but i failed to bundle my self so warmly as i did ror. so i now have a cold,Pooo! i missed four classes do to it and will not be able to attend Rachels b-day festivities cause i have to catch up on all my work =0( Well happy Birthday anyway Rach!!


On a happier note I BOUGHT A VAN!!! WOOT!! Chell it is the best road trip van EVER!! lol! so i will so be coming to visit fo' sho'!! yea i get my Chell fix la la lalala!!!

must finish yet another english paper late'tas!

i still got an A (48/50) but i totally ignored some sugestions and i misspelled "anything"!!! ....sumarry of an essay for engl 1010...... how freaking stupid is that?! i need to like.. i dont know do shit right?! grrrrrrrrrrr!!!

ok so im standing on a chair putting up a nice pin up on my wall and Roar sneaks up and starts talking to me i freaked out( i didnt know she was there) lose my balance and fall in the most awkward manner causing me to injure my ASS! OOOOUUUUCHHH! like its still throbbing. i was cleaning my room which was pissing me off already then that then i get no love from rob when i ask him to help finish the room(sweeping the floor) so i go to bed pissed and alone. GRRR!


now dont get the wrong idea i am having a fine day, with the exception on my bum, which if i didnt reiterate on that you guys would assume my pain in the ass had to do with anal which alas no it did not errr ummm lol yea so anal sex.... thats for another post

I am so zonked i havent selpt very well since i blabed about being raped seven years ago to my mom. im sure most of you knew cause i told ya if you didnt now you do. but i had never told her! what good would it ever do? well... the good it might do is prove the point of her stupid fucking habit DID in fact HURT her kids! now im not saying if my mom didnt toke that i wouldnt have ever been raped Buuut it Would have changed how the situation was handled.
Srry if i bumed you guys out yesterday all i wanted was a hug but ally wasnt home =0( lol no im ok i just thought i was over some of this shit you know?


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i forget to pack a lunch some times, ok all the time! But Ally is meeting me at 2 to go get steak-in-a-sacks!!! Al you rock! so lunch and play time WOOT!drama club today ... i swear i have social anxiety issues. i totally freak in public speaking but im dead set on defeating my fears.

Kay srry the show is 10pm Pilot Light $5 at the door a group called Mi & L'au their supposed to be like the French White Stripes...

Ally there is a show i want to see tomorrow you should come with it's only $5!!! ohh oh EVERYONE should go ! yea that way i can catch up with everyone face to face and i can hug and kiss you guys like a long lost grandma you didnt know was still alive!! i promise not to pinch your cheeks tho!!
LOL! love you guys call me 237-2202!!! i so want to see you!!!

hi hi so im @ school waiting for algebra to get out, how are you?


Christina i <3 you and you need to tell me where to find you so i can visit!!

Chell i am so jealous!! TJ brought this kick ass german chick who was to stab me but he never came back so =0(

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oh and i will be sending save the dates for the wedding soon

im getting so nervous about school!!! im so hyped!!!


congrats rea on the car!! woo hooo!!

Ok to those who dont know Robs band has spilt for many personal reasons and all i have to say on the matter to other krush kelvin girls is this....

Uh I'm not sure but if i were to post how much of an asshole Brian and how much i hate him and how some music endever that he choose to be a part would blow with out my fiance be cause his vocal talants took that band farther then anyone else in the group ect ect how would you feel towards me?



not that i really give a shit, its a bummer that krush kelvin is no more, i know its something Robert enjoyed. but if they (any of the boys) want to persue music they ALL have talent so good luck them ALL
and i'll be damned if i hate any one of them or bash them for ending the band. becuase its childish and its THEIR BAND or was THEIR DECISIONS, why take it so personal they're big boys they can play nice or get over it.

So Thanksgiving on Thursday!! WOO HOO! Im going to have 13 to 16 people for dinner!!
I'm extremly happy the O'connors are going to make it its so nice to be able to give back to them.

got my classes all sorted for now got my job at the nursery! rock on! happy thanksgiving to all you i love!!